DO YOU KNOW ME?

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DO YOU KNOW ME?

ME:Do you know me?

PEOPLE: Yes, I being knowing you all my life. 

ME: What do you know about me?

PEOPLE: Girl I know everything about you. 

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I find this to extra funny! Because no one really knows a person. We hide behind a curtain of some sort. We as people will never full trust the other person. We may say we do.

THAT IS A LIE!!

We all LIE, YES we do.

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No we don’t mean to do it but fear of telling the next person every detail of our life defines that person. It make that person feel like you cave control of some sort over them. No one want to live like that at all.I know, I do not. So, let me share some internet post of other people on trust with you guys.

 

Did you know……..If not than…. 

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The people around me……

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I asked you did you know me and I have not got a clear answer yet. Know a person is more that just knowing a person name, where they live and grew up at. Know a person is, know there life story. It is like being there personal therapist. Some one is not paid to keep a secret of a person life. Going threw the pain and tears with that person.  Someone is there to support them in the time of need. (SEE THE PAIN) Not someone that heard about it or read about it. READ THIS!!!know-me13know-me14

It is sad when people seems they know so much about you and only know what they have heard about you.SHUT UP PEOPLE!!Learn a person story before you open your mouth DANG! No one in this world is perfect. No one has it all together.Not even the RICH!! Everyone has there own daily life problems they you will never know about Unless they are willing to tell you. (WHICH I HOPE THEY DO NOT!!!)  

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Love you Guys

 

The Given Up Story ….

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THE GIVEN UP STORY …

That moment when nothing you do is right….You want to just give up on everything. That moment when your heart seems so heavy…..You have no one to talk to. That moment when your friends don’t want to be around you… You feel so LOW! 

That moment when you want to feel love….You have no one to love you back.  That moment when you are so alone….You have no one to talk to. Given up seems to be your only way out…then you hear statements like this…

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The moment when you just can not take the pain anymore. The fear of all hope has gone. There is no one to talk to any more. You best-friend has passed way. You  began to feel like your life is over. All your hopes and dreams has passed you bye. Remember your life is not over….you began to say “MAYBE ONE DAY“…

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Life to me is a test! Some can pass it with no problems. Some just can’t get it together….A TEST!

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You start telling yourself LIES ….LIKE…I stop trying so hard for people who don’t care about me. I am tired of being so strong for. I am slowly giving up on everything and everyone. Kill me because no one cares. These are ALL LIES we tell ourselves when we are feeling down and low.  We as people need to learn how to change the way we thing and feeling about thing we as humans can not handle. No we are not perfect, but we are understandable.  

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What I mean about understandable is.. Understand a person before you pass judgement to or about them. We are, as we all know humans. We are set in our own was because of how we were raised. Some have the background of never wanting for anything in there life. Then you have the others that always have to work to have. Now did I make it simple enough for you or clear enough for you?  Now, if you learn our children that having on new clothes or the newest pair of shoes our is less important that a GREAT EDUCATION.

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I feel the world would be a better place. If you look around you and see that is one of the main reasons our children are killing themselves. Being bullied in school by kids that have more then others. THAT MAKES ME SO MAD, NO WORDS CAN EXPLAIN HOW MAD IT MAKES ME.

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Always remember your children  TEACH ONLY WHAT THEY ARE LEARNT TO TEACHThe very first teacher is the parents. Second teacher or teachers are the lady next door or the TV station your children watch. Third set of teachers and new friends at the school he /she attend. 

I WAS ALWAYS TOLD IT TAKES A VILLAGE TO RAISE A CHILD.

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Take a good look at yourself before you try to put someone down. One thing for sure KARMA is something else. I tell you that! Parent all of the signs are there for you to see in your child. Some feel as if you don’t love them and or care for them. Some feel as if they just want to die (GET HIM OR HER HELP ASAP). You may have a child that choices to use drugs and or alcohol to deal with the pain they are caring inside.

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Because, they feel as if you want listen to the nor believe them if they would tell you what is going on in there life. People walk around with there head held so high and forget where they come from and the people that help them get there.

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Parents NEVER! I MEAN NEVER SAY,  Oh! I know my child better than that he/she would never bully anybody. STOP!!!  PLEASE STOP and ask yourself……where you there (SEE NO EVIL).did you hear the word come from your child mouth (HEAR NO EVIL)….The answer to that was NO YOU WERE NOT!

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At you began to hear the things your child is out there say it will make you sick to the stomach. If you are a old school parent. I agree with this quote so much and I know you do too…..

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These are my thoughts for tonight…… …

 

Understanding Me

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Understanding Me

Me,

I am a women who love life. I am a women who will do almost anything for my children to have (not illegal stuff). I am a women who love children and family. I love too hard at times. If you are not understand what that means then you never LOVE before.

My days are easy when I can look at my children and see them smile. I am a women who suffer from depression. YES, DEPRESSION! Depression is not a game or to be taking lightly. It will allow you to think unhappy and feel unhappy all of the time. It will even make you feel unwanted. It is a hard task to fight alone. Even sometime you may feel as if you do not need help, YES YOU DO!!

If you feel stressed please find someone to talk to about your feeling. If you have children learn the signs of depression if not sad to say you may find you child in the worst way (dead).

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For example:

February 17, 2013 is a day I will never for get. Me, my husband and my daughter was sitting in the living room watching TV. My son came running in the house like always. At first I didn’t think anything was wrong. Until I began to here him moving things around in his room.  My stomach began to feel funny. so I went to his door and tried to open it and couldn’t. I call my husband and daughter to come and open the door for me please something is not right. When they got the door open just enough for me to see inside.

MY GOD, MY GOD GET THIS DOOR OPEN NOW!

Was all I could say!

My son had a hand full of pills taking them. He said he can not take it anymore, he just wanted to die and it would all be over. He was being BULLIED my the little boy down the street.  My son told me mommy I love you but if I got to live life like this I no long want to live.  All I could do was cry.

My daughter call 911 for me while I try to take the pills away from him. It was a hard task but I did it!

I DID IT!    

I had to get him some help. No mother or father should have to go through this with there children or any other love ones. I still to this day worry about this and wonder if I am going to walk in the house and find one of my children dead.

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My life is a book that I am ready to write about and I hope someone would understand it. I had to learn “you are not the only one in the world having problems and you are not the only one depressed”.

No matter what hand life deal you someone else has it worst. You just have to believe it will get better before it get worst. I suffer everyday with bills like any other person. Living on Disability is so stressful, when you had two jobs before getting sick. I stress about not having a job other that my online store. If no one buy anything I can’t help pay my bills. Then someone gave me a idea of opening a online store (http://www.fashioncenter.net). I did that with money I did not have to spare. I just can not understand the hand I was dealt. All I every wanted was to own my own house and be a great mother to my children. All I got was being a great mother to my children. I will be 40 years old this year and still can get my own home. I am so tired of renting  from people that don’t want to fix anything. Like now we have no proper heat in this house but we a a place to live. just pray we make it through this winter storm. I will keep you all posted on our health. (RAIN AND SNOW)

Love you guys   

2017 PLEASE STOP TEXTING AND DRIVING PEOPLE!

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PLEASE STOP TEXTING AND DRIVING PEOPLE!

Around 1:00 pm on January 1, 2017 I was in a car wreck. My life flashed before my eyes in a split second. I did know what had happen. All I knew was it felt like someone had stabbed me in my back with a kitchen knife. When I looked around this little girl was stand over me crying asking was I okay. 

I called 911 for help because, I could not move. I was alone, crying and scared. Not know who she was mad me even scared. She came to me and said I am so sorry I didn’t see your car and I didn’t mean to hit you. I am so sorry. I said baby I am alive I’m okay or you okay. She said I am good but you are not. 

Me being me, I asked her why didn’t you see this big black car? She stated she was on her phone. WOW! Just by her saying that mad me think of everyone who always texting and driving.

JUST STOP TEXTING AND DRIVING PLEASE!!! SOMEONE CAN DIE FROM YOUR LAST TEXT! 

THAT SOME COULD BE YOU!!!

 

2017 Letter

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NEW YEARS!!!!

I am listening to the rain. Ready for this good old NEW YEARS!! 

Dear New Years,

Upon your arrival all I ask for is….

Peace, Love, Happiness and most of all to BE ALIVE!!!

I don’t want anything or anyone around me, that will bring me down or make me feel less than a human.

I don’t need any drama to appear at my door step or my life.

I want GOD to take full control of my life.

I want my family to get closer than ever and bond more.

Keep all the lies away from me an my family. (You can have them.)

I am good and ready for all the changes GOD has for me in 2017. (I HOPE YOU ARE!)

I KNOW MY PLANS

SO,

WHAT IS YOU PLANS FOR 2017????

 

Cant sleep!!

Thinking about life. I was blessed with my first grandchild on yesterday! She has made me complete in so many ways. I just wish I had a bigger home to have her here as she grow. Something I can say this is mine and if something should happen to me my kids and now grand child will have a home.

In 2007 I was in a car wreck and it really put me in a bad place in life. It took life away from me!! I am not able to provide as I should as a parent should. No my kids didn’t go without there needs. But most of there wants was put on hold a lot.

Looking back at that makes me feel weak. It makes me feel like I took a lot away from my children. Homes here are very low in prices. But it is no where near low to me because of my income and that was one of my biggest dreams. I had BIG BIG DREAMS!

  1. Become a lawyer
  2. Husband
  3. Own my own home
  4. Children (3)
  5. Live life.

I have most of that like 2, 4 and 5. Do to life changes I wasn’t able to get 1 and 3. I find myself saying I should have could have a lot. I really hate that. I should have had more in life. Now it is like I am stuck with no life. If I wanted to plan a trip or take one I can. Unless I sit and look at it on the TV.

Well I am going to try and get some sleep.

💞💋 Good night💞💋

That moment when you done all you can and nothing feels like it will change.

That moment when you just say forget it all you are done.

That moment when you feel like it is you against the world.

That moment when you feel like hurting someone so badly but don’t.

That moment when you see people for who they really are.

That moment when you see you don’t have any friends (by choice).

That moment when you DON’T TRUST NO ONE.

That moment when you forget how to love a person.

That moment when all you feel is HATE.

THAT MOMENT WHEN ALL YOU CAN DO IS PRAY!!